As the first day of the last year of high school quickly and surely approaches I say we all look back to this summer...

I'm sure we all did a few stupid things, made a mistake or two, but I for one believe that everything that's happened has been for, cliche as it sounds, the greater good.

I look back onto the moments spent with the girl I love, I look back to the time I spent with friends, and lack of time spent with them. To the job searches, and getting in trouble. To the nights staying up till 4, 5 in the morning, to the highlight of it all, oddly, running camp. I look back and I can't help but say for once... I wish I could do it all again. I wouldn't do some of the stupid things, I'd do more with Eryn, more with my friends. I'd work out more, be in better shape for my sport. I'd have parties I planned but didn't follow through on. I'd make this summer the one I wouldn't want to end...

I mean really. We're fucking seniors now, the time for screwing around is almost over =[

I enjoy messin around, not doing what I'm supposed to in school. As much as I look forward to it, college scares me. I really don't wanna have to start over again. I hate starting new... I've done it too many times. Granted I'll always have my friends from here. I want to make sure I always do. I want my kid(s) to see you all and say uncle, or aunt. You all are part of my family. Family never separates, they just travel from each other.

I love you all, like, for real. The thought of losing you guys, not being with ya'll, not being able to say 'hey cracka' what's up g?' as I always do... Not a fun prospect. I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I want this year to really be the one to remember. I want to be able to say
'Ya... senior year... It was bad ass.'
I wanna be able to look back on this coming year, and remember how great it was... I don't wanna go to the real world if it means starting over.

I think really what I'm saying is, I want this year to not go by fast. The past two have come and gone like dust in the wind, people in my life have too. I don't want to be that dust, I wanna be the fucking rock that stands there saying 'Ya, fuck yo couch... nigga' '

I'm fearing the prospect of once again, starting life anew... starting life over... it doesn't appeal to me as it does to you all... I've done it too many times.. and I'm tired of it. I'll even miss the stupid getting up at o dark 30 in the morning for track meets... oddly enough...

Anyways
I'll see most of you tomorrow.
This will be a year for us to remember. Let's make it the best we can =]